Today’s silver details

Today’s silver details

23 Apr 2014 / 0 notes

Finally a proper dinner date with mummy❤️ a really good multi-grain sandwich with salmon & mentaiko mayo sauce to pull thru my 6 day work week😊

Finally a proper dinner date with mummy❤️ a really good multi-grain sandwich with salmon & mentaiko mayo sauce to pull thru my 6 day work week😊

23 Apr 2014 / 0 notes

"Delete her number.

Stop ringing her. Stop messaging her. Stop making excuses to see her, to drop by her place.

Erase her name from memory. Remove yourself from her life, more completely than you would like but as completely as she deserves. Move on, so that you can allow her to also move on. When you close your eyes, you don’t get to see her face. Not anymore. You don’t get to think about her lips, the warm glow of her skin when she rests next to you, or how she squeezes your hand in her sleep. You are not allowed to remember the smell of her perfume, that she only drinks mint tea (with two dollops of honey), or that she loves you.

She loves you.

She has been in love with you for too long.

So, forget how she says your name. Forget how she calls your name. Forget how she screams your name. Forget that time you got sick and she stayed up with you all night, letting you lay your head in her lap and holding a cold compress to your forehead. Forget how her hair feels in your fingers. Forget how she looks in your sweatshirts.

Forget her.

Know only that she existed at one point in your life, but relinquish all hope that she could exist at another point — sometime in the future that you are unwilling to specify because you don’t know what you want. Yet. It is not fair for you to swoop in and out of her life as you choose. It is not fair for you to say that you are satisfied with “things as they are” and you will have time to “figure it out” later. Let her stop investing emotionally in you. Let her pour that love and care into the people who deserve her.

Don’t tell her that you think about her all the time. Don’t tell her that it bothers you to hear about her with other people, but that you’re willing to understand as long as she likes you more than them. Don’t tell her that this isn’t the right moment but that there will be a right moment. There is not going to be a right moment. She shouldn’t have to wait for the right moment.

Don’t tell her that you can’t handle ultimatums, that you don’t like the idea of finally adding finality to your relationship — whatever still remains of it.

What you are telling her is that you want to keep her on as an option, that you are taking her for granted, that you want to know she will be there, that you can depend on her at the end of the day. When you find that no one else has stuck around or that those who have are less interesting, less thoughtful, or less doggedly loyal to you.

Doggedly loyal to you.

That is what she has been to you, for you almost as long as you have known her: a constant emotional crutch, the guarantee of stability, a safety net while you reachvout to grasp objects that sparkle and shine far greater than she does. All that glitters is not gold, haven’t you heard?

She is fire. You are ice, and you are afraid that her slow burn will smolder your cool, hard demeanor. That’s what has driven your decisions, your actions all along: fear. You are a coward. You are a hypocrite. You are terrified to let her go, but you are afraid she is too good for you, that she could drive you wild, that you would choke on her flames. That she is too much for you to handle right now.

Right now.

But if you choose not to love her now, you can’t choose to love her later."

(via acidxcult)

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22 Apr 2014 / Reblogged from tatatulips with 91,865 notes

"Be picky with who you invest your time in, wasted time is worse than wasted money."

Unknown (via au-la)

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22 Apr 2014 / Reblogged from eletheowl with 79,978 notes

"I’m afraid I’ll never finish college. I’m afraid I’ll finish college with student loans I can never pay back. I’m afraid I’ll get a degree and won’t be able to find a job in that field. I’m afraid I’ll get a degree, get the job I dreamed of, and hate it."

A Mental Illness Happy Hour listener whose list of fears matches mine four for four. (via undeadlife)

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It’s time for me to step down..we have a new club mother now😅

It’s time for me to step down..we have a new club mother now😅

20 Apr 2014 / 0 notes

#zouk2300 with @pearliewhitee dragging us to the ‘photobooth’ that turned out to be…a talking booth😅

#zouk2300 with @pearliewhitee dragging us to the ‘photobooth’ that turned out to be…a talking booth😅

20 Apr 2014 / 0 notes

Good Friday w. my fave manager & cupcake girl

Good Friday w. my fave manager & cupcake girl

20 Apr 2014 / 0 notes

determinate:

vertical/personal/everything ♥

determinate:

vertical/personal/everything ♥

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16 Apr 2014 / Reblogged from oopsydaisies with 7,581 notes

Straight out of a story book…mmm…

Straight out of a story book…mmm…

16 Apr 2014 / 0 notes

Floral Wonderland (minus the terrible ants)

Floral Wonderland (minus the terrible ants)

12 Apr 2014 / 0 notes

"

"It’s never easy, Miranda. Love. Life. You know just this morning, Miss St. John said a very wise thing to me.

She said happy endings aren’t automatic. You have to work for them.”

He reached up and framed her face in his hands. “Don’t you think this happy ending is worth working for?”

"

Tess Gerritsen, Presumed Guilty

11 Apr 2014 / 0 notes

Thursday in Black

Thursday in Black

10 Apr 2014 / 0 notes